I aint never had Simplistic ways of thinking
So if u thinking I need to hear the Negative side from you ..
GO head n keep thinking
Cuz my optimistic point of view
Doesn’t need your pessimistic views too ..
& What does that really say about …YOU?

It’s just not something i do
Look at my life and all that I do
Think about, what possibly drives me too..
And all the fucking disappointment
I continue to live thru ..
most of yall couldn’t walk in my shoes

I was constantly Searching thru life
thinking I needed a wife , But in reality it was the
Wife that needed my life..
No elaboration on that part of my life
Just the know knowledge & lessons learned
Was sufficiently received…
when I almost ended my life…

But for anyone whoever crossed me
During my past life or this life,
know that I’d do it all over again
Just to make sure you got everything
you thought you needed &
Receive the pain you caused me
That you can’t even explain..

However,
Don’t worry I forgive you ..
bcuz I forgave me 1st..
Nah I don’t blame you, I blame me ..
BCuz you didn’t know how heavy I carry loyalty..
But if I’m speaking honestly,
My kindness always had me thinking mutually..
Causing the blindness n’ wishful thinking of false loyalties..
I guess loyalty always been a curse for me..
& I never took that shit lightly!
One thing is, I’m sorry you couldn’t see ..
The vision that I envisioned & viewed
Within you or me..

Another thing, I hope is that yall really see..
The peace and magnified gratitude
& go getting ambitious attitude
Im only speaking humbly,
not rude ….
So don’t be misconstrued or catch attitude
When I go into solitude,
To digress my oppressed success
it’s just the way I de-stress,
Instead of feeling insanly depressed ..

I just hope yall participation thru the healing stages
is a replication or emulation
of what I found Inside of me..
The purity of my motivation will be
My legacy …