I truly understand your inner feelings of, inadequacy, worthless, failure and all the other harsh adjectives we can give ourselves.
Maybe we were never loved right or hugged tight enough or maybe our place in this world really isn’t worth the fight.

But what I do know is when I met you, it felt right like I always knew you from a different life, and knew right then we’d be connected for life. 

A Unicorn Friend, Bestfriend or Overly “Infatuated” friend  but always friends.
Whether we flirt at work, or me comfort you bcuz you’re hurt  or you becoming notoriously famous for “the panic” and calling me Amos. My “feels like ive known you forever friend” is how it began.

Although our circumstantial situations never aligned. Our chemistry never  diminished, like a mystery that could never be solved nor finished.

I’m sorry if I contributed to you not feeling Enough.  Im sorry if I urged impulsive decisions, and most of all I’m sorry that I didn’t….

I just know your worth, and no matter how limitless or priceless you may be to me, I still didnt help you see.
See how you’re meant to “be”,  see how things are meant to be and show you how much you mean to me, by making you feel you are the only woman that matters on this planet, &
Id never take you for granted.

I was honored when you asked me to play my part , in my mind  we’d never be apart and this may be what I need to reopen my heart.  I know it didn’t happen, but it woke something up  within, something I could never pretend. I weighed the Pros and Cons, thought of the short and long. Even after the conversation, I mentally was in Awe with no mitigation.
The path of  intense love, happiness, and amazing sensations. The blessing placed in front of me that I missed with hesitation.

I’m sorry you want to detonate  what I  Unintentionally forsake. I didnt want to make you wait. I didnt want to be too late.
I know things happen, and we call it fate.
But HELL you don’t have to carry all that weight of Hate.

I don’t  want you to leave a Detonation of Horrific effects. Catastrophic act of terror perpetrated against everyone, who’s ever known you. Devastating everyone, who’s ever loved you. Causing us the Closest, us That Cherish you, to suffer the most Damage, the most pain. Like a piece of us Dies with you.
Its not a question of why, but can you?!, can you “Bomb” the people that love you?
The Known and  Ungrown.

Always and forever,

Me